I'm feeling so upset I can't describe.

Thoughts like how I want to get myself drunk, wasted. Just to leave home.
And experience not coming back for a few days to this loving home. That makes me sad.

I want to be away to a place where I can feel like I've successfully expelled these emotions. Within me. Or to a person. Or to a thing. To let me go so far away that it's possible to feel so away, and yet return swiftly to let me return to this abode.

I want to know what it feels to lose you. I want you to know what it feels to lose me.
And if I lose my self, and my senses.
So what happens.