Attempt 1: Not successful.

Daddy is very unhappy about it, as he weighs my commitment. and reminds me of the "promise" I made to him saying that after the trainings for nationals at safra, i would be good and be faithful to books.

would there still be another Attempt 2?

Or, would I tell myself that maybe enough is enough, just be some random senior advisor.

I've just afraid the club would suffer (for another year).

but who says the club would not experience greater difficulty if I'm not part of the decision making? Or could I still be?

ARGH. uncertainty.. stinks.

But, I should think for my parents, and myself, and for my friends too.