Optimist, sunshine, nature, apples, clouds, animals, walking, being me, air-rifle, sketching, music, laughing with friends, reading, living each day to the fullest
'On ne voit bien qu'avec le cœur. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux.

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Honestly speaking, I really am annoyed at myself for not prioritising my own interests as I consider others' more time bound than mine.

Honestly nobody cares maybe

Honestly I hate Facebook for making me have to rely on it, and end up wasting time scrolling through pages

Honestly I dislike not having images of anatomy or physiology cross my mind as often as what I'm doing for Yfe. It really scares me to know how much I've been letting it prioritise my life.

Honestly I should have come to terms with this

Honestly I should be a full time student

Honestly I wonder if anybody have ever felt like they have found a beautiful mountain to climb. But a young explorer, I'm still inexperienced immature and 'unfit', carrying a heavy load of things, having a real future to care about instead of conquering the mountain.
I go ahead anyway. And halfway through, I have no emergency supplies, no helicopter to take to down to safety as and when I'd like to give up. I know I can easily make a decision to give up let go and just go back to base. I know I'm leaving the 100km mountain after completing 60km of journey. How easy is that decision? I feel like slapping myself sometimes. I'm not sure if I'm really a courageous person. Courageous in terms of making a move to even start scaling a mountain when I've never even set my sights on before, but want to do once in my life, or courageous to make the decision to actually give up.

Honestly I'm a walking dilemma. I don't even understand myself. And that makes me sad because I'm not sure who else does.

Honestly I'm upset and I'm not sure who and whether I want to talk to anybody about it. Or at least this for this moment.

Honestly I want to know the meaning of loving simple things and wondering if I truly have loved keeping things simple. Simple for me to embrace and treasure and appreciate.

Honestly, I don't know. And I hate this feeling. Can I stop here? Yes I'll stop here.

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