Optimist, sunshine, nature, apples, clouds, animals, walking, being me, air-rifle, sketching, music, laughing with friends, reading, living each day to the fullest
'On ne voit bien qu'avec le cœur. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux.

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Its really a great experience doing something you've never done before...
Something like being an Emcee :)
Being an emcee with Nhat haha :)

And having encouraging remarks after the concert has ended, really makes you feel great and your efforts are appreciated. Perhaps, it is because I have my close friends there and I really wanted to create this memory of something meaningful that we have done together (who were also organizers). Perhaps, it is because I made a agreement with myself to do it wholeheartedly. Perhaps, it is because it is something to experience -the unexperienced. Perhaps, it was just the want to be happy, to contribute.

So, its a really great effort: Hong, Alison, Ruth, Krittika as well as the rest of the helpers (that really helped)

It kinda suck when you see the people in your class that really came to support in some kind or others comprise of a minority (ok, its just one person AKA zanyang). Yeah, the bonded class thing is seems much like a facade to me, now. Sometimes I feel that perhaps, my class cares (to play?) in events when there's a birthday celebration, etc, but other than that, sometimes I beg to differ that my class truly cares. Who takes initiative? Is everyones views heard when making decision? Who's criticizing? Welfare, who? Is there respect? nah, don't want to talk about it, I belong to row one.

Just another note: (and important one)

If you think that I am quiet antisocial (often, I connote quiet to BEING ANTISOCIAL, ... I do feel strongly (or offended to a slight extent) when somebody calls me a quiet person) :
1) You don't know me well enough.
2) I don't want to know you, for various reasons.
3) I am not in the mood to talk with you.
4) Depends on where am I, who I'm with.

Conclusion: you never know.

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its the end of july, and I didn't receive their email. Oh well, it is always good from the beginning not to get your hopes too high, and end up in greater disappointment later on.

I was uber-disappointed once. (just a few days ago, when I received my full collection of unsightly grades). But now I should plan ahead, make changes, make realistic goals that I should be able to reach this time.

Sometimes, such disappointment just pops up within you, there's no controlling it. Just like being nervous, you can tell yourself to stop being nervous, but still some things you just can't help it. Perhaps, it is the doing of hormones (i'm reading the stress-eating cure - for pw). So, from the book, i realised that sometimes, people may tell you not to feel disappointed, not to feel stressed, but sometimes (or most often)....

Sometimes, it doesn't really have a significant impact from what others say to you, because what you are thinking actually matters the most. Hence, your thoughts matter. Disappointment happens when your actions don't meet your own expectations. And as your expectations concern about YOU, not the other party(ies), what you tell yourself to do next, and to put down such hard feeling is much more effective.

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Ok, back to PW. So great to know that we have a realistic looking mannequin! now updates on the website... back to the top?