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'On ne voit bien qu'avec le cœur. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux.

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Each day I learn more and more about myself, and the memories that began as
ripples now wash over me in high-breaking waves.

Today's training basically consisted of shooting Internals. It didn't go that well.

I was distracted, couldnt find my momentum, but during my sighters, my mind was calm and focused. After that, it became distracted and erratic. Songs just bounced in and out of my head, with different rhythms and genres. And faces like Marcus's was stuck in my head (I haven't found the answers to WHY!!?? yet) for 2 series (20shots). Then I began to think of slightly sad thoughts like there was nobody watching me shoot internals or nobody supporting Cheryl and I, because we are the captains.

Although I knew the right answers in my head, but the positive stuff was like choked inside and not flowing out to empower me (GARRR). Hence, I felt a little stuck while shooting, because there was no one I could talk to behind me. (Because the range was rather empty, other than people who were shooting internals too).

I tried to do positive self-talk, and I realised from Xu Yang that I was doing it wrongly. like saying "don't aim too long" instead of "*something that has the same meaning but starts with a do*". Then I wasn't thinking of helpful stuff to make myself focus.

OK, so WENYING must do the RIGHT STUFF for training tomorrow. You KNOW the SOLUTIONS. YOU CAN DO IT!

and in the evening, I got really worried for a moment because we* haven't started on our cultural mapping project. until i send messages like to evoke a sense of urgency in people.. i got some replies

"Youre slow I've told the scholars to film something ... A 5 minute video does not justify a rendering of extravagant services of meeting up tomorrow!" - by Zan Yang.

-> Oh yea, after reading this. I felt that he used bombastic English. and I realised "yes, actually we need not meet up for such a 5 minute video!" You know, sometimes people like me tend to make serious but 'not-well-considered' decisions when suddenly you have another thing on your schedule and u want to get it done so much.

& I Learnt something about myself.

Oh, just another randomness, I like the style of talking slowing, like the RI boy. Must learn his style.

In that case, I can have time to sort my thoughts before words come out of my mouth :) Haha, I remember Eunice and Jiapei's perplexed look on their faces when they heard me speak anything that came out of my mind! back to the top?