I'm totally exhausted.

I realised something about me... 

its a really strong trend.

If I want something really badly,

even if it is at the back of my mind. 

I will go all out to get what I want. 

Not in a bad sense - like being ruthless and discounting everybody to do stuff that serve my motive;

And, not motives, but rather intentions in a better sense...

Its just what I've always been busy with. just like one of the quote which I remember - "what are you busy with?", rather that "how busy are you" 

For instance, I knew I've always wanted to join the YEE bayer, but I am afraid I didn't have the time to; I still managed to rush and submit my proposal all within the span of a day. The whole idea was always at the back of my mind, i just needed the drive to get it all vomited in words. Yeah, and that is what I've been busy with. Also, with green issues too! 

Its pretty interesting to study my own 'patterns' ... :)