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'On ne voit bien qu'avec le cœur. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux.

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Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me
I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed


I feel troubled or being split into.
I want to join SMP but my other commitments are really heavy.

And I cannot drop my other commitments.

(Will I/I Will) then look back and say: There goes my chance for science research, byebye.
But... Opportunities don't always present themselves to you... right?

Look, wenying, you gotta always find balance.
If you do not, much more will be compromised, like academics.
and which I am NOT WILLING to let go.

On the see-saw scale, I see myself being not so stable currently. But, just a little shaky at the top. Not to the extent that I am reaching - rock bottom! - the ground. haha!
but i'm hanging on, and staying there.

Ok, so i decided not to go for SMP. I am quite sure there are its benefits, just that i dont see it at once, or like now. I might be able to become a good captain next year, who knows? haha. And even continue with SnT, quite okay (: Just think of it as a blessing in disguise la.

I want to reflect about this period after my exams.
I realied that I have been wasting my time watching too much of tv and facebook????!!
LIKE What the. I really hate facebook for wasting my time, because I stare and wait will my hunter's horn from mouse hunt appears and.. SOUND THE HORN!?! That's really stupid, but I don't know why I do it. Yes, I want to up my hunter's title - which have stayed as an Apprentice for about a month. tsk. Stop that.

I watched The devil wears Prada just now.

There was GuZheng this morning. and my guzheng exams are really coming so soon!!!
its on the 27th November, approx 20 days or so.
My performance today wasn't satisfactory. I did practice, but I got stuck and forgot the tune somehow! Shouldn't happen. shouldn't happen.

#I really need to listen to my guzheng exam pieces MORE MORE MORE

Also I realised that I have become more and more prone at breaking promises. This would reflect on my credibility. adversely. But its unintentional! argh. I will call my cousin right now.

Today, I dreamt about a rather stupid dream, I'd say.
My great Uncle was shopping with my family at a very rectangular shopping mall, with many levels. Then we came across a shop selling flowers and balloons, but outside the shop, they sell sports bras. Being interested, I looked around.

Then I realied that the sport bras are for males! then my dad and my great uncle went in to the shop and shopped. Mom sis and I were getting bored, so we went to the arcade.

I don't know why we were with a pram, there was a baby inside. I was made to take care of it too. Then we went into the arcade with the baby.

I played a fishing game. There were only 4 buttons for the game. and 2 strings to pull. Two buttons pointed up, one left and one down. (this is to change the direction of the fishing rod i guess) stragely, I pulled one string, the plastic thing u hold on to, was ripped off by me. I left the broken part on the game station.

Then I was alone at home and made to take care of the crying baby and feed it milk.
I didn't know what to do to stop a baby from crying. (I think i would know, but in my dream, I don't) I called my mom, and she told me to 'bounce' the baby up and down in the cradle position and u would feel Vibration of its body.

then I tried it. felt vibration, and woke up. then ploped my head back to the pillow and slept for another half and hour.

I woke up asking my mom if I really had to care for a baby.

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btw, when is chaoxiang's birthday?

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Wenying, u need to buck up.
Practice Guzheng
Revise, OKAY!
Dont say yes and dont do it.
YES, DO IT.


It's a cool place and they say it gets colder
You're bundled up now but wait 'til you get older
But the meteor men beg to differ
Judging by the hole in the satellite picture
The ice we skate is getting pretty thin
The waters getting warm so you might as well swim
My world's on fire how about yours


Your world, is it on fire, hm? back to the top?